i am 100% serious when i say that i believe that numbers have spiritual and possibly even religions meanings in certain circumstances. there is the fibonacci sequence practically everywhere in nature, the universe may possibly be a fractal in the abstract sense of the word, and trees are already their own type of fractal. i wouldn't say that i subscribe to numerology 100%, but it is extremely compelling, because i have observed it telling me truths about my own life. as an example, i have this hot-and-cold dynamic with one of my long distance friends; we talk non-stop for like a week, and ghost each other for a couple months and repeat. to be honest i was hoping that the "week" wouldn't end, because i was feeling rather lonely. i saw some 5's (indicating impending change), and looky there, my friend became distant again. thinking irrationally? i see 6's. thinking wisely? i see 2's. i refuse to believe that numbers do not have meaning. it makes me feel like im losing my grip, but--> it also makes me feel like im gaining a stronger one. so much information, so many patterns, and there's absolutely NOTHING we can do about it all. i think it's best to take the triple numbers with a grain of salt; try to apply them to your own life, but also know that they aren't the final say. let's say if you wanna ask someone out and you've been waiting for a while, but you start seeing 6's, it's still your choice. they're more like suggestions, anyways.

i saw on tiktok that the universe might be a fractal. obviously, not in the way that we understand fractals, considering how there is a definite "smallest point" of the universe (atoms and planck lengths), but kind of like an inverse fractal. the universe is constantly expanding outwards at the speed of light. could it be an inverse fractal? i think so. it would make sense that the supposedly infinite thing in our universe bases itself on the infinite geometrical function. before anyone gets the wrong idea, i fucking suck at math. i'm basically larping as a mathematician. the reason i hold it so closely, though, is because its proveable. i never bothered with religion as a whole because there's no proof. no proof of noah's ark, no proof of the tower of babel, no proof of anything. but math stuff is literally everywhere. it's less of a religious thing and more of a... fuck i dont even know how to describe it. it's wonderful. i don't understand it but i know someone else does. math is so common in nature that whenever i see recusrive and consecutive numbers i always try to apply their meaning to my life because i know that there's more of a chance of the numbers being right than there is of god existing.

i don't necessarily have anything more to say about this. you may think that im crazy for believeing in this stuff and i honestly don't care. i am the clearest of mind i have been in years and i think that numbers have meaning. some may say that the fact that there are so many patterns and so much recursion in nature is proof of a higher creator of some sort. i am not going to entertain this idea for the slightest fraction of a second. i see it more as the universe having a "blueprint" for everything, and those patterns showing up. the main reason i don't believe in a creator is because it's honestly a little naive. i feel bad for people who were either brainwashed or groomed into religion because they truly believe something that is so outdated.

for a frame of reference, 111 means a new life cycle may start soon, 222 means you're on the right path, 333 means you're protected, 444 means you're on the right path AND you're protected, 555 means change will come soon, 666 means you should reconsider your actions, 777 means an impending fortune is on it's way, 888 means impending romance, and 999 means end of a life cycle.